Transport Story Time

My daughter has just begun taking classes to improve her motoring skills and with the sudden realization that she is now old enough to take car driving lessons I am starting to freak out a bit. It seems like just yesterday she was aten year old on a scooter and now the scooter she rides has a motor and she is taking classes that will allow her to ditch the scooter and get behind the wheel of a car. Idon't know if what I am experiencing is a mid life crisis or just pure depression over the fact that my only daughter is growing up so quickly and it is just a matter of time before she moves out and heads to college. She'll probably take classes in art history, since she just loves art so much but I can't help the feeling of wanting her to fail so she will never leave me.

I almost wanted to bribe her motoring instructor into telling her her motoring skills were terrible and she failed the test but I can not stand to see her thinking that she failed at something. Her whole life she has been such a perfectionist and to ruin that grade A streak now would destroy her.

I wonder if all single moms with only one child feel this way? And if so is it because the only other person in their whole entire world is going to leave you and you feel heart broken or are you freaking out that you are getting old enough to have a child who can leave you? I think for me it is definitely the first because when my daughter tries to talk to me about a boy she likes, what college she might want to attend, or how she can not wait to get a car my heart actually starts to hurt. My daughter is the one thing that I love most in this world and I feel like when she leaves me she may never come back. I know she loves me but I wonder if she will ever need me anymore.